I hate when you meet the most amazing man
and then you find out he’s got a girl….so frustrating
Don’t you have a boyfriend ms.thanng
iM THiNkN OF A MASTER PLAN..
My life story..
as i sit here and wonder & ponder my thoughts
i try to disect my whys and why nots.
why is it when i get angry i want to cry?
why is it tears run down my eyes?
adriniline,anger, shaky hands.
i get so mad i feel as though i cant do anything, nuthing comes out my mouth
writting to me is easier.
Some people with this are annoyed
i say im fine then a couple mins later threw txt or paper i let go of my mind.
so easily with thoughts which through convo i had froze.
another thought i just cant grasp is y to him i am so attached.
when he goes away for days at a time
i feel a feeling as though im being left behind.
although i know this is not true
i feel it the whole time hes gone.
i check my phone to see if a txt or call from him ive got.
which i dont know why over this i get so distraught.
no missed calls or txt
i get mad && sad bt stil continiously check.
this has never been me.
a nikka has never like this phazed me.
i feel as though to attached i am.
when hes gone i shouldn care if i get a txt or call
i feel as though the old me i do not see at all.
the one who didn care about a man giving a txt or call.
frustrating to me it is.
i just dont understand y i get like this.
another thought on my brain
is the people i call friends.
ive let many of them go && no reggretts on that
they were just a faze of my past.
people that were holding me back.
its sad though lookin back
how close we use to be now we just enemies.
immature,fake, people believing somewhere down the line ive changed not trusting me
haha man hilirous some of this shit i find.
cant believe this thing called life.
so quik shit can change..
for the better, for the worse, for the same.
I think about shit non-stop.
&& sometimes i really try to sort it out.
but my thoughts my whys & why nots are complicated to me.
i think about one thing & then it leads to another.
&& my thinking goes on forever.
i dont get to a solid conclusion…
thoughts so deep..answers undecided…this is just the mind of the girl that is undecided.
..signed my thoughts..
9.18.09
Two days of let downs damm.
soo deadbeat fathers in jail for attempt murder.&&.i got a 8mnth yr old sister that i didnt know bout hmm..
Somethin i need to realize..i cant expect people to act how i act or do wut i would do. but i would just think some things are common sense..all well…
My thoughts right now…pretty much scrambled.
..im layin low key from erbody for a while. juss dnt feel like kikn it 4 a while. or juss by myself. Jus dont feel like bein let down n.e more n.e time soon.
..signed..My Thoughts.
AiNT FEELiN iT…9.9.09
MAN ONCE AGAIN I CANT HANDLE F A K E ASS BITCHES.
Y THEE FUKK DO YOU HAVE TO HIDE WHO THE FUK YOU ARE.
IF YOU DONT LIKE SOMEONE THEN DUN FUKKIN ACT LIKE YOU DO.
DONT SIT THERE AND TALK SHIT BOUT THEM 2 MEE && THEN FUKKIN SIT THERE && CHAT IT UP ON MYSPACE WTF.
I DONT UNDERSTAND IT.
PEOPLE IRRITATE THE FUKK OUTTA ME.
—>O && AS FAR AS WHAT KIND OF FREND I AM…DONT POINT YO FUKKIN FINGER TELLN ME IM A FUKKED UP FRIEND I DROP YOU FOR ANY NEW BITCH I KIK IT WIT WHEN you ARE THE ONE WHO DID THAT RE-THINK YOUR SHIT BEFORE YOU TRY && COME AT ME LIKE THAT.
IVE DROPPED ALOT OF PEOPLE. THERES ALOT OF PEOPLE I WONT DO SHIT FOR BUT THE FRIENDS I GOT IM DOWN FOR IM HERE NO MATTER WHAT I MITE NOT KIK IT WIT EM OR TALK TO THEM EVERYDAY BUT MY TRUE FRIENDS KNOW THAT I AM always HERE FOR THEM. IF IVE MADE YOU FEEL OTHERWISE IM SORRY BUT YOU GUYS SHOULD KNOW THE TYPE OF PERSON I AM I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE NO MATTER WHAT NO MATTER WHAT THE DISTANCE.I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THE PEOPLE I LOVE WHICH THAT SEEMS TO BE WINDLING DOWN TO ONLY A FEW. I CAN PRETTY MUCH COUNT ON ONE HAND.
DAVID.LYD.&& NEAH NEAH —> PRETTY MUCH THEE ONLY ONES I CAN COUNT ON TO BE THERE FOR MEE && TRUST MEE I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU I HOPE YOU GUYS KNOW THAT. I LOVE YOU GUYS NO MATTER WHAT! <3
FOR THE REST OF YOU “FRIENDS” MAN YOU LUKKY I EVEN KEEP YOU AROUND.
06 ALTiMA SPECIAL EDiTiON.
=] I GOT iT!! =]
i got a new phone…. and dont turn on my old one
i only gave my new number to like 5 people so its nice to know every time it rings i want to talk to the person that’s calling me.
I need it again. haha
My CAR is…
SOLD. 4000 cash in 20s haha hella ballin. lol (gott it n thee bank)
Brittney is carsearching now with thee neah neah =]
8.28.09.
Happy 11mnths 2 thee hubbooskee. love yu babyy.
0n another note..
I cant fukkin STAND how people sit there && fukkin talk about how much they DONT like people && yet they fukkin sit there && become buddy buddy with them. WTF? can we say fukkin FAKE. ugh i DO NOT understand how people are FAKE like 4real wut is that shit?!? Dont know how to be yourself? hella irritating. UGH. sorry myspace gets to mee ha.
..Signed MY THOTS..
PASSED MA MUTHAFuKKiN TEST.
Woop woop. 100% ya girl CPR certified now =]
At school. Back 4rm break. Hella bored. Tummy full (nniiiccceeee)
Bay this weeknd? idk i need MONEY. Bday nxt friday. hubbies bday nxt wend. awww shyyyttt.
Hella wanna go to the fair. VERY expensive tho; LAME.
..Signed MY THOTS..
